Once Upon a Time..

finally, i gave in... after all the encouragement from my beloved friends, i finally decided to start this blog, something to record my thoughts, my feelings, me memories...

so, enjoy...

i decided to dedicate this 1st post, to.. myself...



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Once upon a time, about 20 years ago...



7th January,1988.. 1.05am. a cute and plump baby girl was born.. "look at her.. black hair, fair skin.. isn't she cute?" the nurse said to the mummy.. (okay.. maybe i imagined tis part.. but who cares...)

This little baby girl later grew up.. and became... me...



i'm really a totally average person, average height, kinda plump, average lifestyle, average grades... sometimes its very depressing.. i mean, i'm the kind of person that people liked, but never really remembered. let's just say that i'm not really the kind of people that has a personality that shines above others, or a person who's able to hold people's atttention...
but nevermind, at least i'm pleased with my life now.. (well.. okay, i'd be better off if i was prettier, slimmer and more interesting..) still, i'm grateful of what i have.. seriously...
this young lady (me of course) likes red, blue and white.. favorite past time: hanging out with friends, playing the guitar, reading, singing, DIY, surfing the net, watching movies.. the thing that tops my "MOST HATED" list would be boredom.. i cannot stand boredom, never never never...


the best thing that ever happened to me is gotta be the fact that i decided to join the band.. i still remembered that night...

it was an evening mid-december 1998, my dad got an invitation for the annual passing-out ceremony of a local secondary school band. being curious, i tagged along.. i couldn't remember what were the songs that were performed that night, but i remember being completely mesmerized by the music. as i sat there, in that hall, i made up my mind, i vowed to be part of that family, i.. wanna join band...

this decision was one of the most important decision in my life... it made me who i am now... it is and will always be a part of me.. i believe those who joined the band would surely agree with me.. there, i got to know a bunch of really nice friends: meisze, swenyin, shulan, john, seowyan, pheiszee, kongboon, chowkong, tekloong, weixing, beetong, justin, leeyee, wenwen, david... i just wanna say thanks for being my friends, and i really appreciate u guys for letting me be a part of your life..
remember all the silly things we did together? the time we went to spain for the MURCIA SPRING FESTIVAL? how we cried for joy when we finally got into the top 3 in the national marching band competition in 2004? or the effort and energy we put in everytime before a performance? remember the slogan "energy.. spirit.. teamwork"? the memories that i have in band just keeps flowing out..

i'm kinda like a lone person, i don't deny it.. expressing myself freely was never something that i could do very well.. sometimes, i really wonder, what is it that makes me so. maybe i just don't feel like sharing my feelings with everyone, or maybe it's just my self-defense action. why is it so hard for me to just be me? people have expectations.. most of the time, i'm really worried that i can't step up to their expectations.. and it's kinda tiring trying to be what everyone thinks i am.. to be honest, i'm really cared a lot about other's opinion of me.. maybe that's what that makes me feel so insecure.. really hope that one day.. i'll be able to live my own life.. my way.. express myself.. and just be myself...

now this baby girl that was born 20 years ago have already left secondary school, 20 years have passed that she have gone through 20 years of good times and bad times.. i just wanna say that for the next 20 years.. 20 years after the next.. and all the 20 years to come... i'm looking forward to whatever that's coming next...